Tim’s coming to visit at Christmas and I’m sort of anxious about it. So I figure I would take a leaf from his book about talking more about my feelings and explain why.
Obviously I cannot wait to see him again and it’s gonna be awesome spending another Christmas with him. This’ll be our third Christmas together and I just love spending the holiday season with him.
This’ll be his first visit to Scotland so he’ll be meeting my family for the first time. Our relationship obviously isn’t very conventional so I’m a bit anxious about how they’ll take to him.
He’s almost old enough to be my friends’ Dad so it’s gonna be interesting to see how they respond to him. I’m most….worried(?) about Amy’s interaction with him because obviously she is my best friend so I want them to get along. I hope they do but Amy was quite vocal about Tim when I told her about him all those years ago, I don’t know whether her feelings on the subject have changed or not.
Luckily Tim doesn’t act 40 so hopefully that’ll ease things. I don’t think of him as old and he has no problems around Alex and Ducky who are closer to my age (early twenties) so I think things should be ok.
My family will be another matter. For Christmas day thankfully it’ll just be at home with immediate family. Me, Tim, Mum, Linzi, Ross, Callum and Gillian. I don’t see any problems there except that it’s the first time me bringing a boyfriend round.
During the day on Christmas we’ll prolly head over to my Dads which should be interesting. My Dad pretty much buries his head in the sand about my being gay and my relationship with Tim. Which is fine if that’s what he wants to do.
However when Linzi has taken Callum over on Christmas Day before, he’s always had presents. It’ll be interesting to see whether Tim gets presents or not. If he doesn’t, I’ll be pissed. And I realize that makes me sound like some kind of spoiled brat but it isn’t about the presents, it’s about the recognition.
On Boxing Day we’ll prolly head to my Aunt’s house for a big family dinner, which is where the potential for problems is prolly the biggest. Since my aunt outed me to my Grandparents, it’s gonna be much more obvious what Tim is. It’s one thing for them to accept me as gay, quite another to accept I’m dating someone twice my age.
You know what? Fuck being anxious. Fuck getting worked up about what people think. Fuck people who can’t accept it. If anyone kicks up shit, they’d better be prepared to not see me for a long time. Yes I know that sounds melodramatic but if it came down to Tim or my family (and I mean my extended family since I know my immediate family are cool with it) then I know who I choose.
And I dare anyone in love to say they’d do it differently.
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